| "New York city lights so bright, we can lose ourselves and start a new life..." Sophie Ellis Bextor |
[25 Jul 2008|05:15pm] |
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Today is the day. I'm all packed and half way changed to go to the airport.
We haven't even got there yet and we're already got plans to do things. Coty and I have gotten tickets to go to a taping of 106 & Park on Tuesday or Wednesday. I honestly haven't watched a whole episode of that show since like Free and AJ were the hosts, but really we're just going to say that we did it and any excuse to be on tv that doesn't involve criminal activities.
Okay, so there's not much to say right now, except: YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!
I'll make little mini posts from my phone during my trip and I'll be taking a zillion pictures to show you everything.
Look for me on tv!
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[24 Jul 2008|08:34pm] |
good hair = hating the world a lot less
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[24 Jul 2008|06:00pm] |
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Stttiiill cranky. Yay for PMDD combined with everything else.
Last night daddy told me (after stressing it was a home equity loan for the house and to pay off the credit card bills they ran up when mom couldn't work because she was having too many seizures, and not just a loan for bens car and school) that if mom got sick again and couldn't work that I would be the one that had to help him make the monthly payment for his shit because "Ben will have a monthly car payment." What the fuck, like I don't? Oh, and health, dental and vision, and outrageous car insurance, credit cards of my own, the internet that they use, the sallie mae loan I scraped up and went to school for shit I didn't want to do for half a semester.
Fuck all of them. I used to adore him so much, and I still do, but he's just as fucking bad as mom now. They make me wanna puke. I'm sick of being angry, and once I finally start to forget about it and put it in the back of my mind they do something to rub salt in the wound. And I don't mind helping, its just the way they go about things.
Speaking of family who make me puke, my grandma continues to play dumb as to why mom won't speak to her. But at least she didn't treat me like I have control over it when I called yesterday.
I have two good tickets to see BSB in Dayton if anyone wants to buy them or go with me. They probably won't sell and I'll lose 115 bucks. And hopefully the dude on ebay that sold me tickets to the elizabeth show. Or I'll be fucked out of 200 then. That'd be awesome. But I'll probably go to Dayton alone if they don't sell. And not Indy. Indy doesn't feel like its gonna happen for me anyway. Lame.
Time to get my hair cut because that's what I do when I feel like this.
So lose some battles but win the war.
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[23 Jul 2008|08:37pm] |
JULIE CHEN WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU WEARRRRRRRING!?
im in a pissy mood. daddy just made it worse and i just want to punch everyone.
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| Lunch breaks rawk. |
[23 Jul 2008|11:35am] |
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My LPO (civilian term = supervisor) just ok'd me adding three extra days to the beginning of my leave time. So yes....six shows. They are going to be so sick of me, but they'll just have to deal. *dances* That just truly made my week.
I was thinking last night and I realized I've been completely neglecting my Backtreet FF community; ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/community.gif) bsbfanfiction. So today I'm going to revamp it and then update it weekly, if not daily. And hopefully get some new members to keep it active. ^_^
I also need to start making icons and banners again. That was fun.
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| "I can see us holding hands, walking on the beach, our toes in the sand..." Justin Timberlake |
[23 Jul 2008|02:13am] |
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Another random post.
While doing some gossip patrol, I came across something that made me sick.
Feast your eyes on this:
( When the beach is hot and sandy, you're my water... N.E.R.D. )
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[22 Jul 2008|11:27pm] |
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omg omg you have to turn on scifi channel right now and watch scare tactics. funniest shit ever.
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| http://www.myspace.com/valencia http://www.myspace.com/weallneedareasontobelieve |
[22 Jul 2008|10:58pm] |
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Somewhere In The Dark // Just Say Yes (in stores SEPT 16) by Punchline |
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excuse me while i beam with proudness for a moment.
"COLUMBIA FUCKING RECORDS!"
Support my Turds! and go preorder the cd. Stud Turdie needs a new Macbook!
soooooooo. im gonna get my hurrrrr cut. sweet a-line bob again. but im leaving the front muuuuch longer. like as long as it is now, just thinned out so its not so heavy and huge and fluffy at the bottom. and that way with it shorter in the back i can get it more platinum. WOOOOOOOOT.
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| Your fingernails, running down my spine |
[22 Jul 2008|07:28pm] |
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Just because. I like putting myself out there for ridicule opinions. Not even close to the finished product but it's a decent start.
( Warning Graphic Sexual Content. )
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| it's no secret that the stars are falling from the sky |
[22 Jul 2008|05:22pm] |
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Well, apartment/duplex hunting is going full-force. We looked at a place today, have an appointment for one tomorrow, and have called about a couple others, as well as adding a couple backup numbers to the list. Whew. I hate moving. (Yeah, I know. We do far too much of it.) I'm blaming the economy for this one. We love this house, but it is not worth my relationship or my happiness to keep it. We're spending every cent we have on keeping the bills paid, and our lives are suffering because of it. So moving to a smaller place (with cheaper rent!!) will benefit us in more than one way. Personally, I'm looking forward to having less to clean and more money to spend on fun things...like the new U2 album in November!
U2...boy are things getting exciting. Rumors abound over on interference, everything from release dates to video shoots and lead singles. I am one happy kitty just sitting and reading the threads. Yes, I lurk. No, I don't care.
For now, mark those calendars for November 18th and cross your fingers!
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[22 Jul 2008|04:35pm] |
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Yesterday, 3 new people started - 2 in my position, 1 in group sales - and the girl in groups was the only one I met. Today, I went to introduce myself to the new girl in my position - she sits in the cubicle next to mine. A few of us were going to lunch a few minutes later, so I invited her.
This isn't a big deal, but I felt really good about reaching out because I remember how alone I felt when I started and no one reached out to me. It forced me to leave whatever comfort zone I was in and talk to others and things definitely worked out, but sometimes I realize that we forget what it's like to be on the other side of certain situations. Sure, I may be comfortable here now because I know people and I understand the system, but I started off lonely, confused and lost. And it sucked. It feels really rewarding to help someone else avoid the problems you went through.
Since I've "improved my lifestyle," I'm sleeping better, my overall happiness has gone up, I'm doing more with my time, things are just BETTER. I would like a new pair of shoes though - I need to get rid of a few pairs but I'm not getting rid of them until I have a better option to replace them with. These two statements in this paragraph are completely unrelated :-)
Before, what I am about to say would have bothered me, now it's just something I don't really understand. I have always taken pride in being very open-minded. I will try anything, watch anything, listen to anyone's opinion, etc. My tolerance for other people's choices is fairly high as well. BUT, I'm a hypocrite because I have a major problem when others are intolerant or ignorant... HMMMM. Also, I don't understand why some of my peers won't listen to me when I suggest they try something (wide spectrum of "things") but as soon as someone "cool" (term loosely used) does it, they try it and it is their new favorite thing.
It doesn't matter, it's a non-issue, bandwagons are no longer in my vocabulary. (After this entry of course haha!)
I need to buy groceries today - I have to basically transform my eating habits. Then gym, then maybe a movie OnDemand, I'm not in the mood for a 90210 disc or just regular tv tonight...
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| fucking addicts. |
[21 Jul 2008|02:41pm] |
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Natalee (my best friend from middle-high school) told me today they lost her brother to a methadone OD. He started with little shit he didn't think he'd have a problem with and it all came to this. I'm very upset for her even though I never met him and she barely knew him, he was always gone, and she couldn't stand him for what he did to his ex wife and their daughters..and now they're all blaming themselves (her mother especially, who left his also drug addict father) for what he did to himself. Please pray for them..they need it.
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| Randomness ensues in the mind of an unwiling insomniac. |
[21 Jul 2008|02:24pm] |
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I've been so messed up with my sleeping schedule this week and I haven't posted any updates. Here's from the last time I was on watch.
Now (Sunday July 20th, BPO, 2400-0800)
Fast forward to the present - it's now 0055 and I'm on watch. AGAIN. I was just on watch last night, same hours just as Duty Driver instead of BPO (Barracks Petty Officer). My love for this just keeps on growing with every time they fuck me up the ass. Mostly with no lube. It's pure joy I tell you.
The Lollipop song has been in my head for weeks now. Mostly cause of this video.
And also the Candy Shop song via this lovely video. 1:37 - 1:47 are especially good. *licks*
Another fantastically hot Nick montage; Dangerous.
This video is pure greatness: BSB Greatest Hits.
I probably said it before, but I got a new phone and I love it! It works. Imagine that.
I hope no one comes down and hears me cause I'm singing my little heart out without regard to who is listening. Waterman and some other guys in my shop keep trying to get me to go do karaoke with them. I refuse. For one, I'd have to be shit-faced to get up on stage and sing at a bar and I don't drink at bars, usually. If I do, it's one drink and that's it. Two, there's no way I'm going to a bar with Waterman. No fucking way. He's one of the guys I work with that is married and likes me.
OMG! Kristina drove on the sidewalk. And she was completely sober. So we were driving in this parking lot, but it was confusing cause it didn't seem to have any rhyme or reason. We're trying to get out of it and so TomTom tells her to turn right. Right, meaning on to the road, right? You would think so. But no. She turns onto the sidewalk and has no clue why Eddie was in the front seat laughing hysterically and why I was freakin out a bit in the back seat. Besides the fact that her tires were straddling the sidewalk, it was pretty obvious she was on the sidewalk as you could see cars pass us on the left, going the same direction we
were.
*I'm too lazy to post individual pictures so here's the links to see them all.
CLOUDS || CHICAGO
**Note: I fail at posting updates. Notice the time setting in the post and the current posted time.
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| "Let's, let's stay together, lovin' you whether, times are good or bad, happy or sad..." Al Green |
[20 Jul 2008|11:55pm] |
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Just having a sudden emotional moment:
I'm watching "Brook Knows Best", and I have to admire that girl. I'm almost grown and I know that if my parents got divorced after almost 28 years of marriage, I would die.
True love is the shit.
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[20 Jul 2008|10:02pm] |
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really, does anyone have anything to talk about besides batman?
ive had no human contact today save amanda for a few and my family, but bens just like dad and i want to stab him, so ive avoided him. and mom is comatose because she has an ear infection. and daddys always keeping himself busy.
all my friends are gone, and lj is all BATMANNNNNNNNNN BATMAN BATTTTMAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNN
laaaame. im going to bed. maybe ill wake up early enough to do something fabulous to my hair.
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| i want a kiyoseki styler. |
[20 Jul 2008|03:32am] |
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im not really a fan of ashton kutcher because he still acts 15 but im watching punkd, and hes talking about demi, and its so cute, and it made me not want to punch him so bad. lol
okay, i know i need to wear blush and darker lipstick but im pretty much uncomfortable with that at work..but why didnt any of you tell me i needed to use an eyebrow pencil? lmao. thank you madradhair.
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[20 Jul 2008|12:47am] |
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but i want your opinions too
anyone but moms and debras will be fantastic. lmao. because debra thinks my dark hair comes from the devil. and mom wants the a line bob because thats how hers is and she likes it.
Hello all! First time poster, long time lurker. I need some nonbiased opinions and/or some suggestions for my hair if you will..it needs cut, and I can't make up my mind on the color :)
( Some rambling and a ginormous timeline beneath the cut! )
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[19 Jul 2008|01:31am] |
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I went to the Sky game tonight - Michelle had a staff credential for me so I sat courtside etc... Tyrus Thomas was 8 seats down from me, in his Sky hat and all... It was fantastic. And the Sky won!
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| new everything |
[18 Jul 2008|11:39pm] |
new macbook
new lj layout
updated my profile info because i sound like an 18 year old fangirl ...and when i wrote it i was. hhahaha
i still do a little. ill never ever take out popslash. so too bad.
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| A special day worth noting. |
[17 Jul 2008|09:12am] |
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Three years ago today, I said "I do" in front of the love of my life and four other people (technically five, if you count the child I was carrying!!). It hasn't been the easiest road to travel at times, but I wouldn't have it any other way. I love my husband more now than I did then, and we have come so far in such a short time. Happy anniversary baby! I love you!!
In other news, the apartment/condo hunt is on. As much as we love this house, it is too big, too costly, and far too much work. Downgrading to a smaller place should make things less stressful on both of us (as well as cutting down the bills a wee bit!).
Last night, we went out to the mall and walked around for the first time in ages. Supper was had at the Chick-Fil-A, and hubby and I each picked up a shirt at Steve & Barry's. It was nice to be able to go out and spend a little bit of money without feeling totally guilty.
Today, we don't really have any special anniversary plans. Mum is taking the boy for an overnighter, so hubby and I will have the night to ourselves. We're going to go look at some rentals in this one neighborhood that is nearby the mall, and more than likely take a trip to the library. The books are due anyways, so we might as well poke around and get a few things. We basically had our anniversary celebration anyways...that was part of the draw of going to Orlando.
Well, the boy is requesting breakfast and his Goofy video, so I think I'll end this here. :)
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